Spending days counting days

So lately I have felt REALLY REALLY REALLY lonely... But I know that it comes with the territory of being a wife to a medical student. So maybe this will help others or maybe your husband is home all the time and you have no idea why I am whining...

If you are one of the latter, keep it to yourself nobody likes to hear a bragger.

So here is my "journal entry" of my missing my husband:
First lets start out with the good... I love my life. I really do! I love being mother to a feisty 20 month old and I am really enjoying pregnancy. I love love LOVE my nieghbors and friends who help to keep the sadness at bay (thank you girls you know who you are are you SERIOUSLY keep me sane)

However, I still miss my husband. I caught myself smelling one of his shirts the other day (it smelled like his cologne, not stinky body because we all know I would have thrown up instead of reminisced) Nothing can replace him. I know we drive each other CRAZY sometimes and half the time he is home I don't know what to do with him since I am so used to him being gone. But I do miss him.

It is hard not to be frustrated when you have only spent a total of two hours (awake) with your spouse in the last 6 days...

I have tried all the old tricks in trying NOT to miss him but they all FAILED miserably! Seriously it just made it worse I think. I tired the not thinking about it, the thinking that it is okay to be alone "who needs a man anyway... right? WRONG!!", the not caring if he is gone (meaning emotionally distancing myself so it doesn't hurt as bad when he doesn't get home till 1 am for 3 weeks straight), I think that one was the worst ever... and others that just don't work.

I have realized that yes it hurts to say goodbye, and yes it is sad to eat dinner without him, and yes it is sad when your daughter runs to the window when "daddy is supposed to come home" (I seriously don't know how she knows this) and points to cars driving by and asks "daddy?", or when we sit down for dinner and she says one of her first two words sentences of "daddy home?", and finally every time she passes our bedroom door she looks in and asks for daddy (this is because if Lance IS home when Devy is awake, he is always sleeping... and so on and so on

However I try to remind myself it is STILL VERY IMPORTANT to keep us both happy in our marriage. I do love him and I think that is why I miss him so much. I love him and miss his presence in our home.

I guess I just have to keep reminding myself: THIS IS TEMPORARY

Thats all

PS I LITERALLY count down the days until summer... I have two calenders that I cross off the days every day... I don't know why but it does help. 3 weeks and 1 day left... lol

Birthday fun!

The other day Devy and I had some friends over. The girls had a ton of fun trying on the colorful sunglasses that Devy got for Easter. Way cute Shaylee, Camille, and Devy!















Her hair is LONG ENOUGH!! I decided to try putting Devy's hair in pigtails... IT WORKED!! She kept them in all day! I just had to remind her just to touch and not pull.






























Later yesterday we went to a birthday party! It was her friend Blake's 2nd birthday and he threw a "Go Diego Go" party. They had headbands that Chelsea MADE! and here Devy is coloring her vest















She actually let me put it on her for about a minute and then she didn't want to wear it anymore! I'm glad I got a picture though! Great idea Chels!!















If that wasn't enough, there was also a pinata!! The kids had fun hitting it with the bat















They couldn't quite hit it hard enough so Chelsea's mom ripped it open and poured out the candy for the kids















The candy picking up... Devy LOVED her Starbursts she picked up

Pregnancy development

I am 27 weeks along now.  We are having a boy.  We have decided to name him Lucas Alfred.  We are soo excited! I think Devy is too.  Every time she sees a baby, especially baby boys for some reason, she wants to mommy them and play.  She is soo stinkin cute!!

I have also recently decided to just give up being so frugal that I feel like I am being left out of all the fun... So I am now in the process of getting a gym membership at the Y and I have been working out there for the last week.  I LOVE IT!! I LOVE working out! I LOVE helping people and giving them new ideas to add their workouts! I love looking at myself in the mirror and knowing that I am doing something good for myself and my baby! Why didn't I get a membership earlier you ask.  Well I was too cheap and we didn't have any money... But now that I know that Lance will be getting a job this summer, I am not going to deprive myself of happiness anymore.  And I want to get a job there after we have Lucas.  I probably wont do the Personal Trainer route because I don't want to work that hard... lol So I think that I am going to try and get a job in the child care so that I can play with my own kids (and others of course) while getting paid for it! Sounds like an amazing job to me...

20 weeks

22 weeks

24 weeks

24 weeks front view... Very pretty huh!

25 1/2 weeks

27 weeks today!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lance Helping Devy Get Eggs

The Zoo!!

We have finally arrived. We were supposed to meet a group of girls at 10 but it took a little longer than we thought to get ready so we got to the zoo at about 1




















Going across a WOBBLY bridge. It was fun















Devy and I in an egg















Feeding the fish















Devy did not know if she liked the goats or not. I got her some food but she did NOT want to feed them. Oh well, the other kids appreciated it















Ready to go home for a LONG LONG nap. It was about 3 hours past her nap time if you cant tell

Ward Easter Egg Hunt