Spending days counting days

So lately I have felt REALLY REALLY REALLY lonely... But I know that it comes with the territory of being a wife to a medical student. So maybe this will help others or maybe your husband is home all the time and you have no idea why I am whining...

If you are one of the latter, keep it to yourself nobody likes to hear a bragger.

So here is my "journal entry" of my missing my husband:
First lets start out with the good... I love my life. I really do! I love being mother to a feisty 20 month old and I am really enjoying pregnancy. I love love LOVE my nieghbors and friends who help to keep the sadness at bay (thank you girls you know who you are are you SERIOUSLY keep me sane)

However, I still miss my husband. I caught myself smelling one of his shirts the other day (it smelled like his cologne, not stinky body because we all know I would have thrown up instead of reminisced) Nothing can replace him. I know we drive each other CRAZY sometimes and half the time he is home I don't know what to do with him since I am so used to him being gone. But I do miss him.

It is hard not to be frustrated when you have only spent a total of two hours (awake) with your spouse in the last 6 days...

I have tried all the old tricks in trying NOT to miss him but they all FAILED miserably! Seriously it just made it worse I think. I tired the not thinking about it, the thinking that it is okay to be alone "who needs a man anyway... right? WRONG!!", the not caring if he is gone (meaning emotionally distancing myself so it doesn't hurt as bad when he doesn't get home till 1 am for 3 weeks straight), I think that one was the worst ever... and others that just don't work.

I have realized that yes it hurts to say goodbye, and yes it is sad to eat dinner without him, and yes it is sad when your daughter runs to the window when "daddy is supposed to come home" (I seriously don't know how she knows this) and points to cars driving by and asks "daddy?", or when we sit down for dinner and she says one of her first two words sentences of "daddy home?", and finally every time she passes our bedroom door she looks in and asks for daddy (this is because if Lance IS home when Devy is awake, he is always sleeping... and so on and so on

However I try to remind myself it is STILL VERY IMPORTANT to keep us both happy in our marriage. I do love him and I think that is why I miss him so much. I love him and miss his presence in our home.

I guess I just have to keep reminding myself: THIS IS TEMPORARY

Thats all

PS I LITERALLY count down the days until summer... I have two calenders that I cross off the days every day... I don't know why but it does help. 3 weeks and 1 day left... lol