So excited that life is moving on for us. There was a time there for a long time that we were so depressed that our lives were over as we knew it.
I will have to say that when you have a dream and it is coming true, you tend to get a little attached to it. But when all-of-a-sudden it gets ripped out of your hands for now fault of your own or those around you, what do you do?
Do you get angry and get even? Do you scream at the heavens? Do you crawl into a hole and curse the world? Do you go into survival mode and become a zombie until it is all over? Or do you take the high road, put on your working shoes and change your plans?
Well I can say I have done a little of all of these. I have to truly admit that I felt every single one of these emotions. However, in the end I feel good. I truly felt that we were going to be okay, I just had to wait and wait and wait. That was it.
I had to get up every morning and put on my working shoes and be a mother, wife, housekeeper, entertainer, lover, and friend. How does one do this you ask?
Truthfully, I didn't do this every day. There were a lot of days I just vegged. I couldn't find the emotional energy to get off the couch and live. I basically did the basics... I got up fed my children, changed thier clothes, brushed their teeth, fed them again, and then again and then put them to bed.
But after a while I started adding things to do to my day. Hey why not go outside? Go for a walk? play a game? Be a friend? Sure but these were still HUGE struggles.
However, guess what!!! After MONTHS of prayer and fasting and prayer and crying and prayer and fasting and prayer and screaming and prayer and fasting and crying... and then prayer again, our prayers were answered.
The Lord works in mysterious ways people... SERIOUSLY!
We were planning on moving to Oregon, and trying to pick of the few pieces of our hoped-for professional life and figure out how to pay 100K back with two bachelor's degrees and half of a med school degree. (Pretty daunting I have to admit)
But within TWO DAYS Lance was in a dang school and a pretty good one at that!
We had NO IDEA
All I can say is thank you to my Heavenly Father. Thank you for seeing what I could not and softening the hearts that we could not. My faith in my Savior has increased 10fold and I cannot express the love and admiration for the sacrifice that those around me have made on my behalf. I love my Savior, my family and my friends. I thank you for buoying me up in a time that I could not raise my head out of the water of life. I felt like I was drowning and there was no way out.
Thank you for your countless prayers and words of love and encouragement, they mean the world to us and we will be forever greatful. You are all true friends and loved ones.